WHO I WAS lyrics by NF ft mgk

Ash and dust

Everything I care about enough

Burning up (yeah)

(Alright, turn my, uh, vocals up) Nothing left of who I thought I was

(And then just let it run) I was

I'm stuck in traffic, tryna find my way to a home that I've never known

On a GPS with no address

So I'll follow my heart, but my heart is scattered

Like my father's ashes in the back of the rental after I dropped his urn

Probably a metaphor for everything I've learned

Like how the only love I'll have is gonna crash and burn

Or how the poorest I've felt was after the most I've earned

The biggest lie told is that no one should be concerned

There's gotta be another highway that don't lead to Hell

A star to lead me through the darkest night like Christian Bale

I hid from God for more than two decades of life

And when I came back to the light, He didn't ask me if I'm Christian still

Just opened up His arms and embraced me like I'm His Son

Erasin' all the archetypes of what people like me become

Since I was young, my personality split like serpent's tongue

But all the poison in my body still ain't make me numb

I lost a best friend and felt all that

Cryin' on his open casket while I knelt on that

I had a best man picked out for my wedding

But instead of getting married, I carried guilt and left all that

A vagabond that broke a bond for Boca Raton

Who all along regretted he never kept all that

I left everything behind, but this engagement ring and a frozen heart

I'm standin' in the fire to melt all that, yeah

Ash and dust

Everything I care about enough

(Burn) Burning up

Nothing left of who I thought I was

I was

I, I, I was

Yeah (burn)

Lash out, need to take a breath and calm down

Try to regulate, don't know how

Wasn't taught that in my house

Kids of my own, I step back

Look at those smiles and feel sad

Hope they don't wind up like Dad

Stuck in this loop like I am

I've called you, never heard back

After everything we've been through, the good and the bad

You're 'bout to throw it all away and overreact

Because I overreacted, karma, I guess

My temper gets the best of me

A part of me that I wish I knew how to get rid of

It's the issue I have, my M.O.

Say I need you and I love you to death

Then turn around and go and treat you like you nothin' but trash

I know-

I know I messed that part up, but

I know, I know, I know, I know, I know

Yeah, I know, sometimes, I

Lash out, need to take a breath and calm down

Try to regulate, don't know how

Wasn't taught that in my house

Kids of my own, I step back

Look at those smiles and feel sad

Hope they don't wind up like Dad

Stuck in this loop like I am, I-

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NF — Biography

Early Life

NF, born Nathan John Feuerstein on March 30, 1991, in Gladwin, Michigan, is an American rapper, singer, songwriter, and producer. He grew up in a difficult environment; his parents divorced early in his life, and he later lived with his father due to abuse in his mother’s home. In 2009, the same year he finished high school, his mother died from a drug overdose. This loss became one of the most defining and painful themes in his music, especially reflected in the song “How Could You Leave Us.”

Music became NF’s emotional outlet, and he began recording using a simple karaoke machine, writing intensely personal lyrics to cope with trauma, anger, and confusion.

Music Career

NF’s career began with independent releases, followed by momentum that placed him on the radar of major labels.

Key releases include:

Moments (2010, early independent album under his real name)

I’m Free (2012, independent EP)

NF (2014, self-titled EP and his breakthrough into the Christian and mainstream markets)

Mansion (2015, his first official studio album, introducing his cinematic sound and deeply introspective writing)

Therapy Session (2016, raw exploration of mental health, grief, and personal battles; earned critical acclaim)

Perception (2017, mainstream breakthrough; included the international hit “Let You Down” and debuted at number one on the Billboard 200)

The Search (2019, another number one album, continuing themes of anxiety, pressure, and the pursuit of purpose)

CLOUDS (The Mixtape) (2021, a shorter project showing creative flexibility)

HOPE (2023, an album focused on healing, growth, maturity, and confronting his past)

Musical Style and Themes

NF is known for his cinematic, orchestral production style, sharp and rapid-fire rapping, and intensely honest lyrics. His themes commonly include:

Mental health, anxiety, depression

Childhood trauma and emotional pain

Fame, pressure, and internal struggle

Personal growth and healing

Identity, faith, and introspection

Although he began his career under a Christian label, NF does not label himself a “Christian rapper.” He describes himself simply as an artist who writes about life, aiming for emotional truth rather than fitting into a genre box.

What Makes NF Stand Out

NF is respected for the authenticity and emotional depth of his music. He avoids explicit content and focuses heavily on storytelling. His vulnerability, combined with cinematic production and powerful delivery, has earned him a global fanbase across both mainstream and faith-adjacent audiences.

WHO I WAS lyrics by NF ft mgk