FEAR lyrics by NF

Hello darkness, my old friend (hello)

Knocking at my door again

Beggin' me to come outside

Let you back into my life

Now, usually I'd be strong enough

To lock the doors and keep 'em shut

But not today, I'm desperate (desperate)

So go ahead and come on in

Ocd is worse than ever, hands are bleedin'

Maybe I should take the pills, don't (whoa)

Know what's goin' on with me

Some days I actually think I might be schizo- (whoa)

Phrenic, prolly not, but even writin' this

Is makin' me begin to spiral, oh, God (oh, oh, oh)

Made a promise, told myself I wouldn't let the fear back in

But then I did, though (whoa)

Told the world that I was sick of runnin'

Then went back to runnin', what a joke (whoa)

Disappointed, yeah, me too

I thought I finally had finally made a breakthrough, guess not (oh, oh, oh)

It's the same song and dance, you've all seen it before

Darkness holds out his hand, then we walk to the floor

Every decision made isn't mine anymore

Like a puppet with strings, I just don't have a choice

What's the truth? What's a lie?

Help me, God, help me, Lord

Face your fears, dry your eyes

Grandma died, what's the point?

Lost the keys, lost my hope, lost my will, lost my joy

Lost a friend, lost my home, lost my faith, lost my voice

(Desperate)

Standing back, watching my mansion burn to ash while I

Hold the gas can, asking God if He started this fire

Is this what You wanted? Is this what You wanted?

Make all my hopes and my dreams come to life just to lay them to rest

Is this what You wanted? Is this what You wanted?

Give me a false sense of peace just to show me what peace really is

Is this what You wanted?

On the verge, on the edge

(Is this what You wanted?)

Petrified, scared to death

(Is this what You wanted?)

Prayin' to God, desperate

(Is this what You wanted, what You wanted?)

(Is this what You wanted?)

Hangin' on by a thread

(Is this what You wanted?)

Empty heart, nothin' left

(Is this what You wanted?)

Breakin' down, spiralin'

(Is this what You wanted, what You wanted?)

(Is this what You wanted?)

Standing back (is this what You wanted?)

Watching my mansion (is this what You wanted?)

Burn to ash (is this what You wanted?) While I (oh, oh, oh)

(What You wanted, is this what You wanted?)

Hold the gas (is this what You wanted?) Can

Asking God if (is this what You wanted?)

He started this fire (is this what You wanted, what You wanted?)

End of FEAR lyrics by NF

NF — Biography

Early Life

NF, born Nathan John Feuerstein on March 30, 1991, in Gladwin, Michigan, is an American rapper, singer, songwriter, and producer. He grew up in a difficult environment; his parents divorced early in his life, and he later lived with his father due to abuse in his mother’s home. In 2009, the same year he finished high school, his mother died from a drug overdose. This loss became one of the most defining and painful themes in his music, especially reflected in the song “How Could You Leave Us.”

Music became NF’s emotional outlet, and he began recording using a simple karaoke machine, writing intensely personal lyrics to cope with trauma, anger, and confusion.

Music Career

NF’s career began with independent releases, followed by momentum that placed him on the radar of major labels.

Key releases include:

Moments (2010, early independent album under his real name)

I’m Free (2012, independent EP)

NF (2014, self-titled EP and his breakthrough into the Christian and mainstream markets)

Mansion (2015, his first official studio album, introducing his cinematic sound and deeply introspective writing)

Therapy Session (2016, raw exploration of mental health, grief, and personal battles; earned critical acclaim)

Perception (2017, mainstream breakthrough; included the international hit “Let You Down” and debuted at number one on the Billboard 200)

The Search (2019, another number one album, continuing themes of anxiety, pressure, and the pursuit of purpose)

CLOUDS (The Mixtape) (2021, a shorter project showing creative flexibility)

HOPE (2023, an album focused on healing, growth, maturity, and confronting his past)

Musical Style and Themes

NF is known for his cinematic, orchestral production style, sharp and rapid-fire rapping, and intensely honest lyrics. His themes commonly include:

Mental health, anxiety, depression

Childhood trauma and emotional pain

Fame, pressure, and internal struggle

Personal growth and healing

Identity, faith, and introspection

Although he began his career under a Christian label, NF does not label himself a “Christian rapper.” He describes himself simply as an artist who writes about life, aiming for emotional truth rather than fitting into a genre box.

What Makes NF Stand Out

NF is respected for the authenticity and emotional depth of his music. He avoids explicit content and focuses heavily on storytelling. His vulnerability, combined with cinematic production and powerful delivery, has earned him a global fanbase across both mainstream and faith-adjacent audiences.

FEAR lyrics by NF